MONEY MATTERS

I realize that more often then not my moods are directly connected to money. The more I think and reflect on it every rotten mood as far back as I can recall has been related to having or the lack of having any funds. So I guess officially I am moneys bitch is that a sad way to live or what?

When I have money to spend I am the life of the party, uplifting, sweet, generous, and as soon as the money train crashes my mood takes a nasty turn for the worst. Why am I so conditioned and in tuned to money? Money is not supposed to be your whole world but damn when it comes so infrequently and never in abundance I believe it would make anyone hypersensitive to it. Am I the only person whoever wonders how far they would go just to make money when they don't have any? I mean in this current climate of whoring for dollars everyone is on some hoe shit even Barbara Walters.

It's so hard existing in a world that is money centered and not be effected by it. Everywhere you look the almighty dollar is king, no one wants to be broke everyone wants to be rich who's not. That's why the world is so preoccupied with stars we love that they have money and they wear fabulous clothes, go on fabulous vacations, buy mansions, and exotic cars. We even love the crazy things that they do because at the end of the day we want their power, and their money. We wish we were them and they have the money to make it look so easy. The saying money is the root of all evil has been quoted for years but I would take a rich mans problems over a poor mans any day and I know I am not alone in that.

So many of my problems would be taken away if my bank account was bursting at the seams with money right now. Life would be a whole lot easier and I would be a whole lot happier. Yes I know that it shouldn't be that way but tell that to bill collectors, colleges, car lot managers, etc money makes the world go round and it makes my moods go up and down its not right and a little disturbing and I will try and focus on better things and still push on but I won't turn down any money either.

BLACK WOMEN ARE THE MULES OF THE WORLD

Have you ever had the opportunity to just watch a baby sleep? I highly advise it it's chicken soup for any old crusty soul. I can't express in words how much I love my niece. I look at her and I see that out of madness something so beautiful can be created. I wish she was mine truthfully but she isn't and I always have to give her back to her parents which I hate.

Which brings me to today's post the war on little black girls and women. I love the movie/book "Color Purple" and "Their eyes were watching God" favorite books by two fabulous black women authors. My favorite Quote from Their eyes is when nanny tells Janie that "black women are the mules of the world" and in the color purple of course is the big dinner scene when Celie tells Mister that she is leaving with Shug and he goes into his triad about her being black ugly and a woman.

It makes me sad because how far have we as black women really came at the end of the day? Yes we can go get degrees and have letters at the end of our names work in the white house as the presidents right hand and still be disrespected, overlooked, under-loved, and in a nutshell we are the throw away group. When something happens to a black woman like rape, death, mutilation, etc we get a brief news blurb and then the story is forgotten. I may be going out on a limb here but hell isn't the rest of the world just taking their cues from the men in our own culture? We are fucking expandable I don't see any black man going hard for the black woman on air, in a song, in a rap, no where.

Even if we do get a song then the next record he talking about chocking someone out or making it rain on a hoe wtf??? Black women have always shouldered the heaviest load whether it was taking care of white children while ours where sold off and beat or worked like mules, whether it was being paraded amongst millions as an oddity in a circus act, whether is was getting rapped by several boys in front of our child we are expandable. From the day a black girl is born she is met with BET's portrayal of her as either all whore, a mammy, a prude, a bitch, never can we have depth never are we given a backdrop to tell our story we are pushed around ignored forgotten belittled stepped over, stepped on, pushed aside for some whore who's had more black industry penis in her then a real hoe stroller on sunset.

I for one am so tired of just being plain ignored and disregarded like I don't matter like I am nothing because my ass don't push out like a video vixens, because I don't have a blond weave tacked onto my head, because I would rather read then crank anything, because I have values and I know my worth.

So what do I tell my niece one day when she comes to me sad with tears in her eyes and looks up at me and says, "TT why doesn't jimmy like me? He called me a bitch and then pushed me down and said Maria/Becky/Kim Sung is better looking then me and I am just a nappy headed ho" I so hope that never comes to pass I hope that in my nieces future that a black woman will stop being undervalued and become at least a little appreciated and respected. I hope she will have someone checking for her who recognizes that she is beautiful a descendant of kings and queens that she is smart, and he admires her mind not her behind. I hope he can see that she is special and deserves to be treated like the precious jewel that she is. I also pray that she will know her own worth and know that she doesn't have to be some bodies bust it baby just get some attention, I digress.

I hope that in my nieces future someone will say to her you are beautiful my black girl/women/queen and I respect you because you are uniquely made and also made in Gods image and there is nothing below or above you that can parallel that and I hope he means it and isn't just blowing smoke up her ass.

In my nieces future woe be the little boy who makes her cry I am not above pushing a little bad ass kid down and walking off, I know its wrong and I am trying to work on it but just in case I don't achieve that level of maturity when she is playground/school age that's your ass little boy that's your ass.



*I know I can't put my hands on someone elses child without going to jail but I will teach my niece to whoop ass and take no shit especially from pushy little boys with grubby hands who might not know how to respect her boundaries.

A LETTER TO UNCLE SAM

Dear Uncle Sam:

Hi, it's me the one you know as ***-**-****. I have worked in your system since I was the ripe age of 19 officially. I have had jobs that paid a wage that wouldn't even keep a well fed pooch alive let alone a person with financial responsibilities. You see Uncle Sam I have tried my hardest to do right, work, be a responsible citizen and pledge my allegiance to my country even when I think you're wrong I still would just shrug and chop it up to America being America. I thought we had some type of understanding I would work my way up the pay scale and you would raise my wages due to a cost of living increase. Some where along the lines though Uncle Sam you failed me. You wrote books and legislation's on freedom, and democracy, you said give us your hungry and poor and we will clothe and feed them we will welcome you with open arms because we are America and that is our duty and we do it proudly.

Well Uncle Sam I am pissed off because I am American born and bred but I can't pay not a one of my bills because I can't find a job that will hire me with a wage rate that will allow me to keep up with the cost of my expenses and the cost of living in southern California. I own that I have made financial fopas and have not used the best of judgement at times but to repeatedly deny me work thus not allowing me to better my situation and pull myself up by my bootstraps is that not a blatant mockery of what America stands for? How can I better my situation if I can't get a job paying decent wages due to my current FICA score? I am stuck in the catch 22, I have gotten sucked into this downward spiral and I am stuck at the bottom and I am caught in the drainpipe called despair. What about me have I not be a loyal citizen? Have I not warranted your care, or help? Have you not seen me broken and beaten down by my financial circumstances? What would you have me do? Prostitute my body? Sell drugs? Rob and steal? After I take one of these alternative methods of living into consideration and I happen to get caught by your boys in blue Johnny law and they throw me under the penal system and give me life because I can't afford a high profile lawyer to plead my case what then Uncle Sam?

At this point in my life I just want simple things I want to be able to maintain a well paying job, one that will allow me to pull myself out of the financial bind that has become my resting place, I want to be able to live on my own with having to worry about where my next meal is coming from or if my lights and gas will be turned off. I want to be a productive member of society but I am being penalized because I can't afford to pay my bills and have made some poor financial choices in my life. I am now not a worthy candidate to be hired because according to employers who run a background check and see a poor credit history/score they say it speaks to my trustworthiness and therefore my credit score says that I could be considered untrustworthy around sensitive information, that I am susceptible to bribes, that I may commit fraud using someone else's information etc. In actuality I have never even stole so much as a piece of bubblegum, nor would I ever steal because if I was a thief I wouldn't be poor I would be rich, if I had no integrity I would be a winner because people with no integrity do whatever it takes to make that almighty dollar, they bend the truth, they use "creative" money management, they do whorish things to get ahead in life, suck a little dick, put out porn tapes, write about extramarital affairs, sleep with their bosses to get ahead etc. So what would you advise me to do Uncle Sam if no one will hire me for anything what recourse do I have? I am at the whim of the world I can't even pay my cellphone bill and yes that will go on my credit also, my bank account is also overdrawn and yes that will go on my credit also and the fun just keeps going.

I just want to say thank you for thinking of me when you passed these laws that made it virtually impossible to improve upon my financial situation, thank you for valuing people from other countries better than you value your native sons and daughters. Thank you for not allowing a single black women who has no kids to be eligible for any kind of aid or benefits because you don't consider her destitute enough. If anyone were to ask me where the greatest place in the world is to live I would truly be at a lost for words because right now my life is fucked up and you don't give a shit but yet you say I shouldn't be lazy, and trifling, pushing out babies and putting them on the counties dime. Yet when I don't do that I can't get any financial help so Thank you Uncle Sam for being that uncle that rapes me in the basement and robs me of my dignity repeatedly. I am your least favorite Niece, the forgotten and the destitute yet you want me to believe in you, care about you, work towards a common goal and do my part. Why not just give me my own BET reality show you can call it a "broke black bitch with no whip and no chips" or how about "Shuckin' and jivin' coontime for that prime time dime" or "America's next baby momma with three different baby daddies who all have to go on Maury and none of them are still not the father" I digress.

Signed your least favorite, never thought of native niece

God Bless America.....

FAB FRIDAY EDITION: B. SCOTT

While I am going through my own personal life crisis I will try my best not to heap my troubles upon your heads you don't care and you don't come here for that and I don't blame you. Anywho I know we all going through a hard time some way or other and I just want everyone to know I understand your pain for real. If you are one of the fortunate ones who has decent credit, a car, your own place and a job/career with benefits fall on your knees and give praise to the almighty because everyone ain't got that real talk.

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A LITTLE OF THIS AND THAT/MONEY MATTERS

Hey everyone in blog land that passes through here every once and again. I hope every ones weekend was wonderful, hope all the mothers were taken out and treated to wonderful treats.

Ummmk on to this and that; so I watched Oprah yesterday and her show was dealing with the worlds most talented/smartest children something to that effect and I just sat there and watched these babies up until like age 9 I believe showcase their different talents and a couple thoughts went through my head. 1. How the hell did I end up my age with nothing, who was responsible for dropping my potential/never tapping into it at an early age or putting me in some kind of position where I would be doing better or who failed in my early ages to give me the gift of knowledge or at least point me in the damn direction of it. I mean damn how the hell this late in life I am just fucked all the way around. 2. All parents really have to do is take time out from other shit and I know its hard but spend time with your children, reading to them, talking to them, playing games with them, introduce them to numbers, words, colors, different languages. Start teaching them how to think outside the box unlock their potential early in life so they don't end up a dumb ass at 29. Take your children to museums, take them camping, let them explore different activities, arts, musics, dance, healthy foods, different cultures etc. Give them the foundation they need so that they become explorers and dreamers, let their minds soak up everything not just sesame street and Mr. rogers neighborhood.

Television in extremely small doses, let them play, read, draw, jump, climb, ride, let them expand their wings. Let them use their imaginations and not expensive toys, when I was a child I would spend hours in my great-grandmothers backyard just pretending to cook and clean and all that type stuff. I rode bikes, roller skated, played with dolls, all that anyways the most important lessons you can also give your child is about economics how money works, how to make it work for them, explain to them about credit, loans, making bad financial decisions, thinking not just in the moment but long term. Tell them to make wise decisions and that everything they do has an impact on their lives. Have them start saving in their own savings account when they are younger instill that in them so that they get in a habit of saving and putting money aside.

Also its very important to know where and who your child is with at all times even family friends can become suspects you never truly know a person until it's too late. Pedophiles are everywhere in all walks of life ask a catholic victim of priestly abuse. Sometimes its better that a baby not even be burn then be born to a ignorant mother who is so screwed up that she turns a deaf ear to all advice, help, or anything she doesn't want to hear that doesn't benefit her in some way shape or form.

So many things going on in my life right now its horrible and they don't look like they will be getting better anytime soon so put me on a prayer list.

BTW has anyone tried myspace karaoke yet? I haven't been brave enough to record anything but if you do tell me how the experience was for you I love karaoke its fun, and why did I feel like I was cheated all my life when I found out about roller setting my hair which I am going to try when I get some spare money I kept wondering what I was going to do with my hair and now I may have an option yay. If anyone has ever roller set their hair let me know how it turned out and what products you used that worked out well for you.

This video is excellent and I have to say it YT folks have the keys to the kingdom when it comes down to money, listen to it absorb it pass it on this is what you should pass onto your children!

FAB FRIDAY EDITION: THANK YOU MOMMA'S; HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

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No matter what I will always love my mother even when we get into it. No matter how hard people think I am or how evil I am (dramatic eye roll) I will always have my mothers back I don't have to understand her all the time but I do have to love her it is divine order. To those who have mothers that they don't particularly care for who may not have been the kind of mothers that they wanted or mothers who weren't much like mothers but rather chose to abandon them instead because they were selfish or weren't ready to be mothers I'm sorry and I know you might be there yet but try and find it in your heart to forgive them or try and works towards forgiveness nothing like the weight of unforgiveness blocking your blessings and holding you down.

To all the young women who are pregnant, mothers, who may be struggling on your own to raise your children. I know it's hard but do your best to impart wisdom unto your children. Teach them the right ways so that they shall never stray from it. Help them break out of the bondage and cycle of unwed young mother/fatherhood. Help them to see that they have choices, develop their minds, hearts and bodies, and be their protection away from the wolves and those that seek to steal their innocence before their time. Watch over them be their sounding board never crush their dreams and love them with everything in you. No, No one comes into this world knowing how to be a parent but listen to elders, be wise, follow your heart, and if you don't know take a class, read a parenting book by an African-American pediatrician learn the stages and the steps your child will progress through and set the example you want your children to learn by.

Last but not least To all the grandmothers, great-grandmothers, aunts, great-aunts, and women of the community whom may not have birthed a child from their womb but loved and took care of that child as if they had. I thank you for being their and for encouraging a generation of children who went on to do good things and become someone. I thank you because without your influence many a child would have fallen by the wayside. I thank you because without you there would have been no us thank you for being the root to the tree that birthed the fruit that gave the world me. I appreciate the road that was paved just so I could exist here today and if no one else tells you I'm saying it thank you and God Bless you always.

As always I would like to close with a very beautiful special song that I believe sums it all up for me from a movie that I could relate so well to.

A LITTLE THIS A LITTLE OF THAT

Look ahere folks sorry for the lack of post but there wasn't to much I wanted to talk about. A few tibbits though if you haven't heard about it all ready you need to read it post haste about the big drug bust that went down at San Diego State University which is an upscale extremely competitive school to get into. Notice the guilty folks pictures aren't splashed all over the news and you don't hear a whole bunch of hoopla about it and like a caller on Wendy Williams said today it's because everyone involved was not of color but rather the majority ruling folks and you know who they are. Please don't act simple like you don't understand Who the ruling race is even though Latinos outnumber everyone still doesn't mean they have THE power yet don't shoot the messanger just calling it like I see it. Anywho you can check the story OUT HERE.

Another thing that is coming up is mothers day wow and summer is almost here those of you in school and who work in the educational fields I hear your sighs of relief and I understand believe me I do hold on it's almost that time.

Last but never least is my passion for all things M.A.C. so I hit the M.A.C. counter up in Nordstrom and I had been anxious to see about the newest things they have for lips which is the DAZZLEGLASS if you are familiar with the Lusterglass, the lipglass, the plushglass, etc then you MUST get ahold of some Dazzleglass I love it I bought two for myself you can wear it alone or over something fab. I call it lipcrack myself. I love things for lips and eyes and believe me a man of worth knows the difference between wacky tacky lip smear and that for real that makes the lips sing and come alive. Ladies if you don't buy anything else this year invest in the dazzleglass you will be glad you did it your lips and fella will thank you.

Oh before I go can someone please explain to me why would someone anyone want to be considered a bust it baby? I mean for real if I hear pliers/plywood/pilar (whatever his name) is talk about a bust it baby one more time I believe I will just leap off the nearest tall building with a sign on my chest saying NO MORE BUST IT BABIES DAMNIT! DO NOT WANT return to the bottomless pits of music hell please and thank you.

FAB FRIDAY...CHANGE IS CONSTANT

Oh my we are already in May soon it will be time for cap and gowns, people are having proms, young ones will be going off to college, we all getting older and change is constant. I used to be sad about change like I really couldn't handle it, sometimes it is sad but it's sad in a good way because every living thing has to go through some kind of change in order to grow, get better, and survive. Change is a constant which no one can stop no matter how much we dig our heels in and want to pout like grown ass jerks*.

Sometimes things change and they aren't good like loss of a job, car, income. *Sigh* anyways today's fab Friday post is going to be videos that relate to change some way some how.

When this song came out I remember writing the lyrics on the cover of my YBF magazine cover least I think that was the initials can't remember but it was an offshoot of vibe magazine right???? Anywho I always thought these lyrics were so profound and even though I was still young I felt what he was saying.


Okay notice a young ray J pre sextape days, yoyo without her braids, this is a remix of course but a fab song none the less and of course it goes without saying look how far music has CHANGED


This video goes without saying look how much lil Kim's face has CHANGED, of course Aaliyah is no longer with us may she rest in peace.


Without the star to hold the glue that was blackground together soon after Aaliyah died so did some part of everyone that knew her directly and people didn't just have the heart to do the music like they used too. I for one noticed a change after she was gone is that when music truly died also????


This is just a good song about change period.


THIS VIDEO MAKES ME TEAR UP I love Rascal Flats though yeap country still stan for them! Check the lyrics of course powerful and moving of course someone dying will change your whole life especially if you were in love with them, or pregnant.


Last but not least for the graduating class of 2008 which my little brother is a part of *sheds tears* Listen to the lyrics take them to heart and light the world on fire with your flames of youth.